Why did I even check my dusty, old friendster account? & why didn't I delete it away?

I know right.. friendster's like, kinda expired (already, long ago) to most who have been active in Facebook/Twitter. But I don't know. I'm rather sentimental. I'll give in some thoughts before deleting or throwing away something's that been part of my life. I know, I know. It's just a network site. But, that's one of the sites I made lotsa friends and I was rather active in, other than Myspace(which I've already deleted) Now that facebook's up, I've neglected friendster (for a very long long time).

No idea why; I logged into friendster account just now & surprisingly, I could still remember the password, considering I'm a forgetful lady. tsk. as per normal, I'll view the list of people viewing my profile and then check the page itself to see any testimonials/comments given etc. & yea, since I'm already logged in, I did a quick check on this person I used to be close with, online. got to his page and it took me few secs to respond to what I saw. hah. someone just got married?

I have no idea why, just why my heart was giving me this uneasy feeling, which triggered my stomach to feel uneasy too. I clicked on an album that showed the few photos of the wedding they had. hmmm. I don't know. I just don't know why I was that surprised. seriously. As I looked through the photos, I was still trying to gather the thoughts. Questions flow in, which totally didn't help in making myself feel any better.

maybe cause I think as a friend, I expect him to tell me? and maybe cause all this while I've been expecting his email reply, like he used to expect from me? hmmm.

sometimes, I don't understand myself either. people treat me like shit and I could still forgive them and give them 2nd chance(s). silly, yes?

ahh, forget it. What's the point brooding over someone not worth thinking of or saving a friendship that is not worth saving, right? haha.

Maybe It's time that I click the 'cancel account' button?