Why did I even check my dusty, old friendster account? & why didn't I delete it away?

I know right.. friendster's like, kinda expired (already, long ago) to most who have been active in Facebook/Twitter. But I don't know. I'm rather sentimental. I'll give in some thoughts before deleting or throwing away something's that been part of my life. I know, I know. It's just a network site. But, that's one of the sites I made lotsa friends and I was rather active in, other than Myspace(which I've already deleted) Now that facebook's up, I've neglected friendster (for a very long long time).

No idea why; I logged into friendster account just now & surprisingly, I could still remember the password, considering I'm a forgetful lady. tsk. as per normal, I'll view the list of people viewing my profile and then check the page itself to see any testimonials/comments given etc. & yea, since I'm already logged in, I did a quick check on this person I used to be close with, online. got to his page and it took me few secs to respond to what I saw. hah. someone just got married?

I have no idea why, just why my heart was giving me this uneasy feeling, which triggered my stomach to feel uneasy too. I clicked on an album that showed the few photos of the wedding they had. hmmm. I don't know. I just don't know why I was that surprised. seriously. As I looked through the photos, I was still trying to gather the thoughts. Questions flow in, which totally didn't help in making myself feel any better.

maybe cause I think as a friend, I expect him to tell me? and maybe cause all this while I've been expecting his email reply, like he used to expect from me? hmmm.

sometimes, I don't understand myself either. people treat me like shit and I could still forgive them and give them 2nd chance(s). silly, yes?

ahh, forget it. What's the point brooding over someone not worth thinking of or saving a friendship that is not worth saving, right? haha.

Maybe It's time that I click the 'cancel account' button?

my handphone needs a doctor. 1 of its organs not working. serious.
I've restart this smart thing more than 5 times but the problem is still there. It just won't read my memory card! chey, what chey?! My everything is in there lor! videos, photos, games and most importantly, my songs! my everyday source of entertainment. my handphone IS my mp3. so, you can imagine how torturous my evening was before and after meeting the girls yesterday. I'm a worrier. and it bothers me when something's not right. I couldn't sleep well last night trying to figure out this problem. sigh sigh.
yea, I was a confuse girl yesterday. of all days, I choose to be a boy. haha -.- [from hip down la] I'm known for someone who'll go out with high heels, flats or slippers [only when I'm too lazy to dress up]. it's very rare to see me in those nike/puma kinda shoes. & yesterday, I've decide for a lil change in image. haha. looking back at the overall look, I SOOOO think that the top & handbag don't go well with what I was wearing. hahaha. ni la namenye sporty image tak menjadi! worst still, the shoes are huge! I don't know how sirah wears this shoes w/o dragging it. I dragged it as I walk, cause it's kinda heavy and tiring to walk in. probably, I should wearing a thicker socks next time. HAHA

oh yea, back to my handphone topic. sigh. I'll visit any handphone shop later. Hopefully, they can help me revive this little thing. I need it. I really do :(

I'm backy wacky with an update! not gonna be a long stretch grandmama's story. I'll let the photos guide you through the raya I had this year(: I know right....It's kinda like, expired already. But still, I wanna have something to look back on, when I read my old entries in the future. [haha, like I will] So, here goes..

Balik kampong 2 days before raya and had our 1st day there.

That's cousins and granny.

the little nephews of mine ((: that's just 1/5 of the total numbers of nieces&nephews I have in malaysia. 2nd day raya. Rahman's angelssss ((: abang ngah, a cousin&brother.

I'm sooo excited for his wedding coming december(:

26th Sept 09
but of course, how can we Not raya together? :))
my lovely Agents. shuddup. we are cool okay. lol lol We karaoke-d here. haha raya rya pon sempat eh.
no, I did Not ask for it. she pass it to me to hold. soooo, ape lagikn ;p feeling2 ah. hehe headed down to mas's open house (:(: thanks for the invite Mas G! heheheBaz's homeyy;
this makcik join us again after raya-ing with her family. hehe love you.

I don't know what I'm doing now. seriously. I'm working, but there's nothing much to do here at work, except for tending this quiet library. yes, library - a resource centre for business students. What am I doing here? hah. I reaaaally don't have the answer to that. When I applied for this position, I didn't know I was actually gonna be placed here. Executive Assistant. LOL. sounds wahhhh right? EVERYONE [I really meant everyone] who have asked me what I'm doing & I replied that, they'll go, WAHHHH. but honestly people, there's nothing to be wow-ed about. haha.

When the in-charge explained to me the roles and things I got to do here, it sounded rather Chim. haha I was excited to learn but when I've actually started, I find myself rather free. There are times that I'll be given projects to do, but that wouldnt take much of my time. I usually get it done way before deadline, and I'm free again. (that's why I'm alway online. haha) I need to do something! oh dear...It's going to be my 2nd month here & honestly, I'm not really enjoying my time here :s I feel like going back to work in boutique as part time, but I'm still comtemplating. If weekdays are for my 830-6 job, and weekends are for boutique, What about my social life? -.-

can money just drop from the sky?

If I were rich, IF la hor! I would have set up my own small studio. My makeup studio. I would have taken up courses to improve on this one thing, that I believe I'm good at & I really enjoy doing. I wouldn't have to drag myself out of bed every morning or walking like a zombie back home, after each day. I could just be in my little studio, waiting for calls, doing some networking/advertizing, practising on the skills or explore on new things, like hairdos or photography. all in the comfort of my own little studio..ahhhhh~
berangan seha, berangan.

Back to reality. I'm only a temp. staff here and my savings aren't enough to cover the whole course, even if I thought of taking it. If only dad's supportive of me being a makeup artist and willing to help me with the course fees and prolly invest in my little dream studio, I'll be the happiest person on earth! hehe

but then again, I can't be selfish. I have to be independent already! I can't rely or keep asking my dad for $$ for something I want. I got to earn it, if I want it. It's time I do something in return. so yea, I guess for now, I got to stick to my sucky job and live up to my humble dream in years to come.
I'll stick to freelancing for now.

call me girls! (:

when I say busy woman, I reaaaaally meant she's busy. haha see lah. This busy woman got to stay back for project. so, meetup is postpone til next week. tu pon kalau makcik ni ade time lah. lol.